Tuesday, April 13, 2010

One step closer

I received my permit for entry into Canada yesterday. It came much quicker than I was expecting. I think in this case, procrastination paid off. Sounds like the permit office was swamped last month and it was taking a while for some of the other hikers to receive their permits. Sending it in behind the herd seems to have allowed a speedy return.

Yesterday, I told the last of the families I work with that I was leaving at the end of the month. I work with autistic kids as a behavior therapist, three of the families I have been with for almost two years now. I've been really worried how the families would react. It's been a mixed bag, a couple of the families seemed OK, one family has been quite upset, yesterday's family seemed happy which was a relief! I haven't really felt myself the last month or so, and I think the kids I work with have picked up on it. There's something different about actually vocalizing "I'm leaving" than just thinking about it in my mind. It becomes more real. More permanent. I talked to one of the kids I've been with for about two years who has a pretty good understanding of what's going on around him, and tried to explain to him that I was leaving and what I was going to be doing. It was the first time, this time around, I really felt the sting that comes with a goodbye. Thankfully, he just kind of looked at me and said, "Well, when you leave you can buy me an Ultimate Godzilla 2010 toy as a goodbye gift!"

5 comments:

  1. Great story, Mark. Can you sleep with all the anticipation? Leaving is difficult. Sounds like you are doing it with grace.

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  2. Hi Robin, I've been having a little trouble sleeping as of late. Last week I had a dream I got swept downstream trying to cross a creek. I woke up before I found out how it ended :(

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  3. Such an journey it all is.
    You'll have a lot to think about on the trail!
    I guess you don't have plans for when the trek is done. You may be changed a bit by then, eh?

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  4. Hi Kate,
    You know, I hiked the Long Trail in Vermont back in 2001, and I used that hike as a way to do some soul searching and try to figure out a life plan. When I look back on it, I feel I may have missed a lot because I was thinking too much. Right now I wonder if on the Long Trail I was doing exactly what I was supposed to be doing- Hiking! Why think of what's next when you are doing what you are supposed to do in the first place!

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  5. Actually, when the trek is done, I'd like to start planning for hiking the Sierra High Route in August 2011.

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