6 Month Continental Divide Trail Countdown

Holy crap, it's December 1. Roughly 6 months to go before a possible push of the Continental Divide Trail in 2013. Am I nervous? Fuck yeah. I am trying my best to keep the worrying to a minimum. I think that's why I've been feeling so stressed lately. A couple friends told me to let it go a couple days ago. Let go of the hike. I was able to let it go for about five minutes, before thinking about it again. I know it's probably not healthy to put all your eggs in one basket. I am trying to detach myself from the trip the best I can. I am well aware that there are no guarantees of even attempting a long distance trail until you actually have both feet standing on the path. A lot can still happen between now and then. Financially, it looks like things are going to be tight, much tighter than I hoped. I got sick back in August and had to take almost a month off from work. I also had no health insurance. My working hours have been less this fall. I hardly saved anything since the summer. I had a bit of a health scare last week. Again no insurance, just a big doctor's bill waiting for me in the mail. Next week, my work hours pick up again. I am still hopeful, there is a lot left to do planning wise.